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Bye Nigel.

Keefoong: Derek you yong de leh!

Went Keefoong's blog and saw the post ytd. Lol, he said I burned him during basketball when I scored at a no-pointer pointer. The most only 2-pointer. I shall burn you again. Lol haha.. Jk..

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"im goin now! :( bye! btw, dnt sms me bac, if u want 2 tlk 2 me can tlk on msn, bye!"

See you, when I see you. Must take care k =)

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I miss talking to ...
Hate holidays. Hate holidays. Hate holidays.

Maybe Mr Yeo is right.. I need to control myself.. But no matter what I won't want to see any counsellor...

10:31 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

Moodswings are normal.

Memorable day, because today I saw all three people who changed my life...
Yesterday was horrible.. Today was a little better..

Today.
  • Aces Day.
  • Teachers Day.
  • Be Yourself Day.
  • Class Bonding.
  • Return PEPS.
  • Last day of Term 3.

    (You can choose to click here or not)

    Wore Class Tee.. Danced some rubbish Aces Day steps.. Class bonding, partnered Mr Yeo and kept hai dao ta.. Went hall for assembly and took Dennis's book to Mr Chan's table cos didn't see him.. Saw Mrs Tay and asked her back for my Ezlink Card.. (I'm glad she liked the notebook thing..)

    She told me sth.. I asked Mr Yeo about that and ended up spending half to an hours time at his table in the room opp of General Office (forgot the room name).. So embarrassing when I cried in front of him... Mr Yeo is a nice person.. I hope I would "change back"..

    Went JVS when released.. Weiliang finally came out, then the Kennedy extra guy whatever his name is.. And Darius Junren Vanessa Peiyu Wan'er.. Hughes saw me and shouted, "Sotong!!!" Lol.. Went Vanessa's house to put thing and went to PEPS..

    I didn't know Vishaki migrated to Australia alr, omg... Sad.. Saw alot of people.. Tall people.. Went around with Amelia the crazy woman.. Saw Ms Lim and first thing told her she had alot of white hair.. Robson is a head taller than me alr.. Still act..

    Saw Nigel! His attire so hip can. So tall also.. Asked him if his shin was ok and yeah glad it is going to be fully recovered alr.. And I saw the ... person...

    Went to the basketball court.. Everybody was there and everything was fun.. Can't believe Zhihan is taller than me alr.. Played badminton with Cheryl and Vivian, then Derek (Lee) and Maung Thet.. Maung Thet has a super nice badminton racket cos he lent me his.. And he kept zikua and boasting his racket very nice also... Hahahahaha.. Pa jiao guy...

    Then Amelia, Lixuan and Liqing all went alr.. Qinjiang they all keep kicking the soccer ball.. Some play badminton some basketball.. Then form group - Xunbin, Kahhang, Derek and Jolene (Lee), me. And Zhihan, Keefoong, Janice, Vivian. Super fun and Zhihan became very hiong.. Hiong until I whack him when he snatched the ball on purpose and his body was wet wet one..

    Went to buy drinks around 8+ and walked to bus stop with Kahhang while Aloysius and Vivian went home. Aloy and Vivian damn cute lor, cos of their study problem. Took same bus as Kahhang, talk talk and reached home. Damn, I'm not so blur until like sotong ok.

    Ngo Kahhang you suck. Don't read my blog.




    (Credits: Cheryl the short tomato. (omg cheryl dont see this please)
    Taken: Fitness Corner in PEPS.
    Small group pic: Eugene, Kahhang, Xunbin, Derek, Aloy, Vivian, Nigel, Cheryl, Johnny, Desmond.)

    Xunbin di, Liqing and Yingchong going China today.
    Kristie and Jordan going Japan today.
    Nigel returning England tmr midnight.

    Wish you guys a safe trip. Nigel Tan JJ, I'm not so petty k. Haha.. Glad you had fun, see you next year =)

    Vivian, cheer up please.

    9:17 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    ...

    Today was one of the toughest days of my life...

    Suck...

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    10:31 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    -

    Yes. I'm happy. I really am.

    =)

    10:13 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    <3

    I like you just the way you are =)

    9:38 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    Ah wang is not bhb..

    If you're happy, and you're sad at the same time, how would you be feeling, besides simply putting it in terms of "I am happy and sad"..?

    Ms Dai: (In chinese) "Next time during reading period, I should put Tingting at one end of the parade square, Cheowyi at the flag pole and Cheeyuan at the other end of the parade square! Cheowyi is like one morning don't get scolded by me will die like that!"

    Kristie finally got to eat her Tao Suan..

    Saw Darius(JVS) at IMM with his gf, Hilda(RV) at MRT towards Novena, Teen Zhen(NYGH) at United Square.. All either so tall or not is grow until going to taller than me le.. So sian...

    Nvm.. Night..

    9:19 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    恨,想,爱 ...

    -F4-

    9:10 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    Amen.

    If tears could bring back the past, there'd be enough to bring it back, a hundred times... Then I shall be walking alone in the rain, where it'll be my second most favourite thing to do, because people would not be able to tell that I am crying... "Loneliness adds beauty to life. It puts a special burn on sunsets and makes night air smell better." (From Henry Rollins) It's good to be lonely, so people don't need to bother about me... Then one fine day I shall be walking up the stairways to Heaven, where my imaginary form of "myself" shall take over my position on Earth... The place full of cruelty and evilness... Then my family members wouldn't have to worry about my disappearance... One, two three.. I count the number of steps as I walk up the stairs... Each and every step I take is marching towards the beginning of my new happiness... I feel more and more relaxed... God greets me.. I smile back... Around me are happy and innocent people floating on white fluffy clouds... Unlike the Hell where I used to be, happiness and joy is spread across the faces of the people here... All are as happy as Spongebobs... I see my great-grandmother... I see my grandmother... I see my grandfather... I see my cousin... I see my beloved twin Nephews<3 ... I love them all... It's great to see them... I look down to Earth... I see my imaginary friend getting along well with my loved ones... I see my parents... I see my brother... I see my 36 cousins on one side and another 20+ on the other... I see my friends... I see her... And I see you ........

    But these only happen in fairytales... Or in this sad case, only happens in My Imagination.... This is so useless so hopeless.... Cause I'm nothing but a loser and a nobody... Hah.. Hah...

    Amen. May God bless every human excluding me.
    And especially him...

    8:57 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    The Playground.

    I cannot understand why you're still like that. And I don't wish to know what he is thinking, because it'll just make me feel even more down. Wait on love, because that's the simplest and only thing for me to do. I feel depressed, downcast, pathetic.
    This evaluation is for the person who seems to need love more than anybody else does right now. Aizhen.

    Humans have feelings. They smile, they laugh, they hear(what they don't wish to hear), they feel angry, they frown, they curse, until they rethink and start feeling hurt, so they cry. But you can't stay sad forever, because life still continues and you will sooner or later forget about it (at least you should try to) and when a friend comes to cheer you up, you feel touched, smile and start laughing again.

    It's just like a cycle of our human feelings. That's what I think.

    I've read about this playground thing before, which depicts about human feelings. It's like cute little kids going to a playground at a nearby park. It might sound like happiness to you, but if you use a magnifying glass to have a wider view of the situation, more things could happen other than just happiness.

    Children at play move their bodies. Expressions of their joy are in gleeful sounds. They breathe fully as they play. Happiness appears to be the natural state of humans. Anticipation of the next piece of joy is seen in excitement. This is the form of happiness they get when they play.

    However, scare occurs when there is threat to a person. Take for example, James (or any Tom, Dick or Harry) is a scaredy-cat who doesn't dare slide down slides. He feels afraid because he might think that he would fall and injure himself, he would embarrass himself of his childhood girl friend, or if he were fat, he would get stuck halfway through sliding down. Just for example ok.

    That's when his parents and friends come (to the rescue!). Tender loving hugs are given to James to make him feel comforted, protected. He could pluck up the courage to slide down and forget about worrying too much, because he knows he can trust the people who care and shower countless amounts of love to him.

    But, supposingly, James was too delighted and ecstatic about going down, until he sldies smoothly and lands on his bottom. Sadness happens when there is a loss. He doesn't have enough courage to get up and face the embarrassment around him. He starts crying.

    (Crying is normal. People say strong boys don't cry, but I don't think so. If you're sad, just cry it out. I don't think it's embarrassing to cry just because you're a boy. Boys and girls are equally human beings brought to Earth. After crying, you will feel more relaxed, because it helps to relieve anxiety, relieve frustration. It's like washing the soul. You'll feel much better after crying, it's like part and parcel of life.)

    Back to James. Perhaps, the little girls around him laugh at him for being such a dumbass for landing on his hugeass (or in this case, a smallass), and the little boys around him laugh at him for being such a loser for crying just because of this. Like, aha, cry baby. Intruding into another person's space brings forth anger. James would feel hurt, sad and angry.

    (Anger is just another form of emotion. You want your pride, you want your dignity, your self-respect. Either way, or you fight to win it back. If you feel really angry, you'll feel an imaginary volcano starting to burn up inside you. Burn, burn, burn. Until you cannot control any longer, the volcano would erupt. But instead of huge amounts of lava flowing out and truckloads of ashes given out, you'll feel fiery and either start cursing, swearing, or vent your anger on either someone or something.)

    But all comes to an end at the end of the day, at least that's what I think.

    1. James continues beating up his friends until he lands into a Little Boys' Home, if that's possible.
    2. James cannot face the world anymore, and runs away.
    3. James shake hands with his friends and give each other their promise that they shall not repeat the same mistake again. (Laughing at or beating up one another)

    Option 3 would be the best. Learn to forgive and forget, even if it seems difficult.

    Aizhen, believe in yourself. Just treat those people as retarded people who are just trying to make your life go wrong. Just treat all these commotions as tests God set up to test how you well you can handle the situation. Just treat all these as one of life's stages where you would have to experience pain, misjudgement and anger.

    James has fallen and gotten up again. It can happen to you too, as long as you stand up and face the situation bravely. Human emotions are, normal. You just have to know how to handle it. Hope you cheer up. Don't forget the friends around you who will always give you the support you should be given.

    You can do it, just like Nike!

    10:07 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    .............

    Saw something... No mood to post... Nice day though..

    Why does she ALWAYS HAVE TO SPOIL MY MOOD WHAT THE HELL HAVE I DONE TO MAKE HER DO THIS EVERY TIME I GET CHEERFUL UNTIL THE ROLLER COASTER STARTS TO COME DOWN AGAIN AND SHE JUST HAD TO MAKE ME SO MAD SO SAD SO CONFUSED IM SO ANGRY I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY ALREADY ... ...

    "Human love is not forever."
    - Jeslynn/Mrs Soh (the counselor)

    True... I must control my feelings.. But I've never disliked someone so much before...

    9:42 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    Hello I love you.

    aizhen rocks alot alot alot.
    she's the nicest/most wonderful person I have ever met.
    i am thankful to have her as my friend.
    i love her more than -. <3

    She wrote that ok!

    Aizhen started smashing my piano keys and sang (repeatedly): I'm a natural~

    7:45 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    -

    Today was ok. I love today's dawn.

    Chinese went Mother Tongue Room, I think music room tomorrow. Moral Ed, recess, science. So sleepy because of Mr Chan's droning. Haziq left for NCC and Mr Chan kept keeping him, lol. English was a free period. Came back from the toilet with Jeslynn and Diyanah told me Cheeyuan made Jolene cry.

    ...

    HAHAHAHAHA. It's funny. Went over to Jolene and buay tahan but kept laughing at her. Then she also laughed while crying. Siao zhabor right. She whacked my hand and said: "Fuck lah he. People (dunno dunno what) he also must care. Fuck lah." (sniff sniff) Hahaha, don't need cry de lah. Cheeyuan always joking de. Don't need to say cheer up, cause you confirm not thinking about it anymore =) But don't be sad, haha. Yuck face =)

    Math was even more boring and I was about to fall asleep again when Mrs Tay told me to do some question on the board. Took very long lor, then she said: "At least Guanliang knows how to do. But then Cheeyuan needs to go back to check his answer. Uh. And Cheowyi is coming up with rubbish, ah."

    Lol. And Shawn very noisy outside and Mrs Tay told Sarah that she should teach her brother how to behave or something, hah. Met Aizhen after school, she said want go Mcdonalds to eat McFlurry. Don't want go lor, cause felt very full. But Kristie (who was going to my house to cook) also wanted, so went.

    Went there and saw Yingkiat they all.. Aizhen you good.. Btw the second and fourth line in that post above is not true. HAHAHA. And she actually went to look at my personal computer stuff and conversations. Wl wl wl. And nearly spoil the dancing spongebob Ian Tan gave.

    I eat up all your sushi you left at my house tomorrow then you know, hahahaha.

    Meeting them for breakfast tomorrow for some, what, Roti Prata?!

    P.S. Kristie, next time then eat (Khushni + Mr Chan + moves hands) tao suan, hahaha.

    6:50 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    Quiz..

    Click here to see the quiz.. Ah wang rocks =)

    Leslie Lai Ah Wang rocks! His hairstyle the best! =D
    Tagged by Diyanah. So lame this quiz lor..

    1. The person who tagged you is:
    Diyanah.

    2. Your relationship with him/her is:
    Friend.

    3. 5 impressions you have of him/her:
    - TC5 Lover.
    - David Lover.
    - Kyle Lover.
    - Liverpool Fan. (ahhhhhhhh)
    - Lame lame one!

    4. The most memorable thing he/she has done for you:
    She has done too many memorable things for me until I forget already!
    Ok, joking, haha..

    5. The most memorable words he/she has said to you:
    Immense Podolski (That was during History when we had to fill in the blanks for Immense P_______, which is Poverty.)

    6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will:
    Be killed by HAZIQ! HAHAHAHA. Jk lah..

    7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be:
    Dunno..

    8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will:
    Haha, what can I do?

    9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
    Cause I stole Haziq away from her.. Eh eh.. Haha.. But won't happen de lah xD

    10. The most desirable thing you want to do for him/her now is:
    Make her happy and don't think too much about her results!

    11. Your overall impression of him/her is:
    I tell you already, lame lame lor..

    12. How do you think people around you will feel about you:
    How would I know, haha..

    13. The characteristic you love about yourself is:
    Nothing..

    14. On the contrary, the characteristic you hate about yourself is:
    Something..

    15. The most ideal person you want to be is:
    Aiya.. Anybody lah.. So lame..

    16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:
    Thanks lor.. Lol what else can I say..

    17. Pass this on to 10 people to know how they feel about you:
    (Don't do also can hor.. Never force..)

    1. Kristie.
    2. Cherlyn.
    3. Cold.
    4. Alfred.
    5. Aishah.
    6. Aizhen.
    7. Emelia.
    8. Jeslynn.
    9. Lao ren.
    10. Haziq.

    Who is no. 6 (Aizhen) having a relationship with?
    Me lah! Still need ask.. Lol ok jk lor..

    Is no. 9 (Lao ren) a female or male?
    Oh, no no no, she's a male..

    If no. 7 (Emelia) and 10 (Haziq) are together, will it be a good thing?
    Hahaha, why not?

    How about no. 5 (Aishah) and no. 8 (Jeslynn)?
    That Nehneh Jeslynn got her own le lah.. Hahaha!

    What is no. 2 (Cherlyn) studying about?
    The Sir Stanford Raffles we saw yesterday.. HAHA..

    When was the last time you had a chat with no. 3 (Cold)?
    Lame.. Last year last year..

    What kind of music band does no. 8 (Jeslynn) like?
    I tell you I get whacked uh..

    Does no. 1 (Kristie) have any siblings?
    Yea.. Brother and sister..

    Will you woo no. 3 (Cold)?
    Punch you arh..

    How about no. 7 (Emelia)?
    HAHA, later she come "lemon kick ass" me.. (she said that today, hahaha..)

    Is no. 4 (Alfred) single?
    Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. Ask him lah..

    What’s the surname of no. 5 (Aishah)?
    Goldfish lah.. Special right..

    What’s the name of no. 10 (Haziq)?
    Muhammad Haziq bin Coli.. HAHAHAHAHA.. Ok ok very lame.. Because he likes to say that word so much..

    What’s the hobby of no. 4 (Alfred)?
    Listening to Red Jumpsuit songs?

    Do no. 5 (Aishah) and 9 (Lao ren) get along well?
    Haha.. Ok lah..

    Where is no. 2 (Cherlyn) studying at?
    Dongdong Uncle's school =) She too geek already..

    Say something casual about no. 1 (Kristie).
    Her favourite line: "HAHAHAHAHA. I think I'm mad."

    Have you tried developing feelings for no. 8 (Jeslynn)?
    HAHAHA.. I then don't want.. xD

    Where does no. 9 (Lao ren) live?
    Lao ren yuan lor, cannot see her name arh..

    What color does no. 4 (Alfred) like?
    Red? Black?

    Are no. 5 (Aishah) and 1 (Kristie) best friends?
    Good friends lah..

    Does no. 7 (Emelia) like no. 2 (Cherlyn)?
    Ask her lah.

    How did you get to know no. 2 (Cherlyn)?
    Somehow..

    Does no. 1 (Kristie) have any pets?
    Don't have.. Oh have.. Fish.. Leslie Ah wang's favourite.. Hahaha.

    Is no. 7 (Emelia) the sexiest person in the world?
    HAHA. I don't know how to answer this.

    8:27 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    TItle.

    I hope Nasuha will faster faster recover, so that she can faster faster walk normally, and so that we can faster faster get back to our original classroom.

    First thing Jordan said when I reached school: We changed classrooms leh.
    Tingting: Yea lor. The R5. Corner there leh. So dirty, some more near toilet.
    Me: ?!?!?!?!?!?!
    Announcenment made by LKW: 2I2 and 1R5 will switch classrooms.

    Tmd. I was so angry. But because they think that Nasuha, though have her crutches, will have difficulties everyday walking up and down the stairs, therefore we might have to stay in the _____ place all the way through this year, unless Nasuha has recovered from the sprain.

    Asked her if she was ok, then she said yea. Hope she recovers asap, asap, ASAP!

    1. It's good for her.
    2. It's good for the students.
    3. It's good for the teachers.
    Conclusion: It's good for everybody =)

    I don't want to stay in that classroom already~

    Passed history for the first time over these two years, but I don't know if I should be happy or not. Saw Mr Ng during recess and I felt a little happy so I told him I finally passed when I never passed before and he said: Ah, good. But just now you looked so sad/disappointed when you got back the paper, uh. Why uh. Still, it's good, but can do better the next time.

    Hope so.

    Getting back history results was super fun, because of the anticipation and everybody started to bang tables for drum rolls, lol. Played Charades (A game in which words or phrases are represented in pantomime, sometimes syllable by syllable, until they are guessed by the other players) during English. The class made super lots of noise.

    Haziq do the Michael Jackson pose (face look down, hand on the forehead) for one second and the class guessed the answer already. Hahaha, pro can! The second time he did was tap dancer, around 6 seconds if I'm not wrong. Jianyuan did for the word Nincompoop and made a damn retarded and gong-gong kind of face, SUPER FUNNY LAHHHH =) Bushy did powerpuff girls, then she keep putting her hand around her hair, and the word she was trying to say was "puff". Jeslynn made a crown action for King in Lee Fong King, hahaha.

    Chinese now must go alot of different rooms booked by Ms Dai cos the R5 classroom is used for the malays cos Nasuha not moving. Sigh. Last two periods read the library book about this girl and her dead boyfriend (a ghost) called "I heart you, you haunt me." while they continued playing Charades.

    After school, ate and went range. Got a Safra membership $80.25 refund! Wo fa cai le.. Lol jk.. But could've gotten $100. Didn't train but continued planning for camp in november/december. Sec twos planning, so we sat in a circle, Sweden, Huien, Christine, Darryl, Yeowyong, Jerald, Daniel, Jeslynn, Jayda, Soksan, me. Haha, then talk about Day 2 or 3 already, about movies, to night walks, to ghosts. Then Darryl, Yeowyong and Sweden always saying lame things, and we kept laughing.

    But scary lor, I wouldn't want to see any ghosts...


    5:42 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    Opposite.

    My results are fabulous, remarkable, amazing, marvelous, astounding, awesome, excellent, superb, magnificent, splendid, brilliant, dazzling, glorious, majestic, outstanding, astonishing, terrific, sensational, miraculous, incredible, divine, remarkable, legendary, stupendous, fantastic, lovely.

    I made all the teachers feel glory and I made my parents very proud of me and my results. I feel so happy because I scored such super results.

    And if you believed each and every word which I said above, I'd rather you rethink again and see if there is such a possibility.

    Everything is hopeless already lor.

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    But if I look at the brighter side, today was a super nice day.
    Thanks to __________ =)

    7:48 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    -

    " 在感情上,或许下一个会更好,何必单恋这支花或痴缠那株草而不放?"
    (Adapted: 塞翁失马焉知非福 of 星期五周报)



    有那么容易吗?

    11:30 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    Lyrics..

    If we hold on together,

    You are too beautiful for the human eye
    You are the dream that never dies
    You are the fire that burns inside
    You are the sunshine in the sky
    You are the sparkle in my eyes
    I never thought that I could love
    Someone as much as I love you
    I know its crazy but its true
    I never thought that I could need
    Someone as much as I need you
    I love you...
    - Dan Hill

    There's a calm surrender to the rush of day
    When the heat of the rolling world can be turned away
    An enchanted moment, and it sees me through
    It's enough for this restless warrior just to be with you

    And can you feel the love tonight
    It is where we are
    It's enough for this wide-eyed wanderer
    That we got this far
    And can you feel the love tonight
    How it's laid to rest
    It's enough to make kings and vagabonds
    Believe the very best

    There's a time for everyone if they only learn
    That the twisting kaleidoscope moves us all in turn
    There's a rhyme and reason to the wild outdoors
    When the heart of this star-crossed voyager beats in time with yours
    - Elton John

    Oceans apart day after day
    And I slowly go insane
    I hear your voice on the line
    But it doesn't stop the pain

    If I see you next to never
    How can we say forever
    I took for granted, all the times
    That I though would last somehow
    I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
    But I can't get near you now

    Oh, can't you see it baby
    You've got me goin' CrAzY

    Wherever you go
    Whatever you do
    I will be right here waiting for you
    Whatever it takes
    Or how my heart breaks
    I will be right here waiting for you
    - Richard Marx

    So many years' gone
    Still I remember
    How did I ever let my heart
    Believe in one who's never
    giving love to me

    So many years' gone
    Love that was so wrong
    I can't forget the way it used to be
    And how you change the
    taste of love for me

    You're my one more chance
    I never thought I'd find
    You're the one romance
    I've always known in my mind
    No one will ever touch me more
    I only hope that in return
    I might have saved
    The best of me for you

    And we'll have no ending
    If we can hold on
    I think I've gone this
    far because of you
    Could be no other lovers will do

    No one will ever touch me more
    I only hope that in return
    No matter how much we have to learn
    I save the best of me for you
    - Kenny Rogers

    8:48 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    The star is gone.



































    8:16 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    Wish upon a star.

    Emotions everywhere.

    Love is ______________,
    What's yesterday, would be yesterday.
    And tomorrow would be a totally different thing.

    My heart is kicking jumping stomping crushing smashing banging knocking tearing crying.

    It's not that I don't want to -.

    Will things continue on like this.


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    Podolski rocks.
    Watched Money No Enough 2 for the second time, but I still want to watch it again...

    I shall keep trying to play Yan Huo over and over again on the piano until I get everything right...

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    9:33 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    xD


    Geek, ni hen shuo leh!
    I don't care you, I never marry Mr Krabbs le hor =)

    (Pooh-pooh doesn't mean pooh bear. Those in Mr Yeo's class will know. You dunno go check dictionary=))

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    Just realised Janelyn posted the picture of us and Vanessa (PEPS/JVS) in her blog. Haha, noobshit.

    Credits: Janelyn (for generator).

    Girls.
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    Guys.
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    Natural -.-
    Yucky.
    (and very biantai =))

    Hyper
    Act dumb
    Ziqzaq
    Initiative
    Quack?!
    (where is the letter B for Blow?!)

    Ian tan (salted egg)
    Amazing (omg)
    Normal

    Ahpek
    Zestful
    Hahaha!
    Amazing!
    Rolly-polly? (no offence=))

    Lanjiao
    Energetic
    Says: PI ARH =)
    Loving xD
    Interesting
    Economic...

    CY WOO!
    Hyper
    Erxin
    Erxin (again)
    Yahaaaaa.
    Uncle
    Auntie (omg)
    Nothing (hahaha)

    Jubilant
    Optimistic
    Ridiculously cheapo
    DAO?!
    Act cute =)
    Nosey

    Jumpy
    Unique
    New?
    Young
    Useful? (hahaha!)
    Always very funny one lor.
    Normal

    Siaosiao
    Happy
    Influential?
    Nasty
    Alive...
    Naughty


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    Love you.

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    8:39 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    Love stories (continued)

    It depends on how you look at it.

    Story 5 (A Silent Love)
    From the very beginning, the girl's family objected strongly on her dating this guy. Saying that it has got to do with family background & that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him.

    Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrel very often. Though the girl love the guy deeply, but she always ask him: "How deep is your love for me?"

    As the guy is not good with his words, this often cause the girl to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, the girl often vent her anger on him. As for him, he only endure it in silence.

    After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies in overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?"

    The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married. So before he leave, they got engaged.

    The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails & phone calls. Though it's hard, but both never thought of giving up.

    One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realised that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. She has lost her voice......

    The doctors says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down.

    During the stay in hospital, besides silence cry,.....it's still just silence cry that companied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone. Which pierced into her heart everytime it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know. & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer.

    With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions & millions of reply, and countless of phonecalls,.. all the girl could do, besides crying, is still crying....

    The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy.

    With a new environment, the girl learn sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One day, her friend came & told her that he's back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him.


    A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding. The girl was shattered. When she open the letter, she saw her name in it instead.

    When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her. He used sign language telling her "I've spent a year's time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You. With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. The girl finally smiled.

    Story 6 - The Salty Coffee
    He met her at a party. She was so outstanding, many guys chasing after her, while he was so normal, nobody paid attention to him.

    At the end of the party, he invited her to have coffee with him, she was surprised but due to being polite, she promised. They sat in a nice coffee shop, he was too nervous to say anything, she felt uncomfortable, and she thought to herself, "Please, let me go home..."

    Suddenly he asked the waiter, "Would you please give me some salt? I'd like to put it in my coffee." Everybody stared at him, so strange! His face turned red but still, he put the salt in his coffee and drank it. She asked him curiously, "Why you have this hobby?" He replied, "When I was a little boy, I lived near the sea, I liked playing in the sea, I could feel the taste of the sea, just like the taste of the salty coffee. Now every time I have the salty coffee, I always think of my childhood, think of my hometown, I miss my hometown so much, I miss my parents who are still living there." While saying that tears filled his eyes. She was deeply touched. That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his heart. A man who can tell out his homesickness, he must be a man who loves home, cares about home, has responsibility of home... Then she also started to speak, spoke about her faraway hometown, her childhood, her family.

    That was a really nice talk, also a beautiful beginning of their story. They continued to date. She found that actually he was a man who meets all her demands; he had tolerance, was kind hearted, warm, careful. He was such a good person but she almost missed him! Thanks to his salty coffee! Then the story was just like every beautiful love story, the princess married to the prince, and then they were living the happy life... And, every time she made coffee for him, she put some salt in the coffee, as she knew that's the way he liked it.

    After 40 years, he passed away, left her a letter which said, "My dearest, please forgive me, forgive my whole life's lie. This was the only lie I said to you---the salty coffee. Remember the first time we dated? I was so nervous at that time, actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt. It was hard for me to change so I just went ahead. I never thought that could be the start of our communication! I tried to tell you the truth many times in my life, but I was too afraid to do that, as I have promised not to lie to you for anything... Now I'm dying, I afraid of nothing so I tell you the truth, I don't like the salty coffee, what a strange bad taste... But I have had the salty coffee for my whole life! Since I knew you, I never feel sorry for anything I do for you. Having you with me is my biggest happiness for my whole life. If I can live for the second time, still want to know you and have you for my whole life, even though I have to drink the salty coffee again."

    Her tears made the letter totally wet. Someday, someone asked her, "What's the taste of salty coffee?" She replied, "It's sweet."

    Story 7 - Loving an Imperfect Person.
    They have been married for two years. He loves literature and often posts his work on the net, but nobody ever reads them. He is also into photography and he handles their wedding photos. He loves her very much. Likewise with her. She has a quick temper and always bullies him. He is a gentleman and always gives in to her.

    Today, she's being willful again.

    Her: "Why can't you be the photographer for my friend's wedding? She promised she'd pay."
    Him: "I don't have time that day."
    Her: "Humph!"
    Him: "Huh?"
    Her: "Don't have time? Write less of those novels, and you will have all the time you need."
    Him: "I... someone will definitely recognize my work some day."
    Her: "Humph! I don't care, you'll have to do it for her!"
    Him: "No."
    Her: "Just this once?"
    Him: "No."

    Negotiation's broken. So, she gave the final warning: "Give me a Yes within three days, or else..."

    First day, she "withheld" the kitchen, bathroom, computer, refrigerator, television, hi-fi... Except the double bed, to show her "benevolence".

    Of course, she has to sleep on it too. He didn't mind, as he still has some cash in his pockets.

    Second day, she conducted a raid and removed everything from his pockets and warned, "Seek any external help, and you bear the consequences."

    He's nervous now. That night, on the bed, he begs for mercy, hoping that she'll end this state. She doesn't give a damn. No way am I giving in, whatever he says. Until he agrees.

    Third day, night. On the bed. He's lying on the bed, looking to one side. She's lying on the bed, looking to the other side.

    Him: "We need to talk."
    Her: "Unless it's about the wedding, forget it."
    Him: "It's something very important."

    She remains silent.

    Him:"Let's get a divorce."
    She did not believe her ears.
    Him: "I got to know a girl."

    She's totally angry, and wanted to hit him. But she held it down, wanting to let him finish. But her eyes already felt wet. He took a photo out from his chest. Probably from his undershirt pocket, that's the only place she didn't go through yesterday. How careless.

    Him: "She's a nice girl."
    Her tears fell.

    Him: "She has a good personality too."
    She's heartbroken because he puts a photo of some other girl close to his heart.
    Him: "She says that she'll support me fully in my pursue for literature after we got married."

    She's very jealous because she said the same thing in the past.
    Him: "She loves me truly."
    She wishes to sit up and scream at him "Don't I?"
    Him: "So, I think she won't force me to do something that I don't want to do."

    She's thinking, but the rage won't subside.
    Him: "Want to take a look at the photo I took for her?"
    Her: "...!"

    He brings the photo before her eyes. She's in a total rage, hits his hand away and leaves a burning slap on his face.

    He sighs. She cries.
    He puts the photo back to his pocket. She pulls her hand back under the blanket.

    He turns off the light, and sleeps. She turns on the light, and sits up. He's asleep. She lost sleep. She regrets treating him the way she treated him.

    She cried again, and thought about a lot of things. She wants to wake him up. She wants to have a intimate talk with him. She doesn't want to push him anymore. She stares at his chest. She wants to see how the girl looks.

    She slips the photo out. She wanted to cry and she wanted to laugh.


    It's a nicely taken photo. A photo he took for her. She bends down, and kissed him on his cheek.

    He smiled. He was just pretending to be asleep.

    "You learn to love, not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly."

    Story 8 - A Beautiful Heart.
    The more hurt and pain you have gone thru in life, the stronger and more
    beautiful your heart will be.....

    One day a young man was standing in the middle of the town proclaiming that he had the most beautiful heart in the whole valley.

    A large crowd gathered and they all admired his heart for it was perfect. There was not a mark or a flaw in it. Yes, they all agreed it truly was the most beautiful heart they had ever seen. The young man was very proud and boasted more loudly about his beautiful heart.

    Suddenly, an old man appeared at the front of the crowd and said, "Why your heart is not nearly as beautiful as mine." The crowd and the young man looked at the old man's heart. It was beating strongly, but full of scars, it had places where pieces had been removed and other pieces put in, but they didn't fit quite right and there were several jagged edges. In fact, in some places there were deep gouges where whole pieces missing.

    The people stared. How can he say his heart is more beautiful?? they thought. The young man looked at the old man's heart and saw its state and laughed. "You must be joking," he said. "Compare your heart with mine, mine is perfect and yours is a mess of scars and tears."

    "Yes," said the old man, "Yours is perfect looking but I would never trade with you. You see, every scar represents a person to whom I have given my love - I tear out a piece of my heart and give it to them, and often they give me a piece of their heart which fits into the empty place in my heart, but because the pieces aren't exact, I have some rough edges, which I cherish, because they remind me of the love we shared. Sometimes I have given pieces of my heart away, and the other person hasn't returned a piece of his heart to me. These are the empty gouges - giving love is taking a chance. Although these gouges are painful, they stay open, reminding me of the love I have for these people too, and I hope someday they may return and fill the space I have waiting. So now do you see what true beauty is?"

    The young man stood silently with tears running down his cheeks. He walked up to the old man, reached into his perfect young and beautiful heart, and ripped a piece out. He offered it to the old man with trembling hands.

    The old man took his offering, placed it in his heart and then took a piece from his old scarred heart and placed it in the wound in the young man's heart. It fit, but not perfectly, as there were some jagged edges.


    The young man looked at his heart, not perfect anymore but more beautiful than ever, since love from the old man's heart flowed into his.

    They embraced and walked away side by side.



    Only with pain, comes love.
    Only with love, comes pain.

    (Credits: Hanbin)

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    4:18 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    Live. Laugh. Love.

    Out with Aizhen. =)

    Nice day.

    The math paper was ok. Didn't manage to finish part of the question five, part of second last question and last question. Hope to get at least a B3, though it would probably turn out to be a D7 or E8, even F9.

    I know I suck at Chinese. I know I failed. I know you're happy.

    Sorry Aizhen for making you wait, haha. Went JP and ate & walked around before the movie started. Alfred said Walle comes out today, but turned out to be August 29 or something. So bought tickets for Money No Enough 2. She bought a present for her father. Hahaha. Then kept looking at the prices of the things, so paiseh.

    Saw Laoren, Jiaying, Mae (They were watching some Journey Blahblah movie and Mae said: "Cheowyi? Look at what's in my bag.. drinks!" Haha!), Yonglay, his girl(space)friend, Kaixin. Boontiang, Ruxin and Janelyn were also watching the same movie as us, haha.

    I tell you right. The movie is very touching. Seriously, you should watch it if you haven't. I mean it. Not lying. Feel like watching it again. So touching you know. I thought it would be like some movie full of comedy. The mother of the three sons is so poor thing. She is so wei da. I like her, she's so nice. I think the ending is very sad and I don't want her to dieeeeeeeee. ='( And she was crying when she died. I don't like Stella's mother! She cares much for her daughter, but there is no reason for her to be so rude.

    Aizhen laughed very loud in the cinema lah. Hahahahaha. Ass. You also cried ok, think I don't know. Don't tell anybody about that!

    Went buy some things to match her grey dress for town tomorrow, then library to write the card. She showed me her (lame) orange collection, haha. Then she started to lame again. Took a packed 187 at the interchange, when we heard the bus driver after that saying that the next bus would come in 2 min.

    Anyway, Cheeyuan took the same bus, in the shuai NCC Uniform. I like the uniform. He did a blowjob kind of face then laughed, lol. Aizhen kept wanting to hear his voice and said he looks mature, which is totally the opposite of him. Hah.




    Small Heart, don't be disappointed sad over -, if you are. Be magnanimous..? Like me lah.

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    9:04 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    Jordan farted during science paper yesterday.

    Today is the 14th.

    History paper was quite easy, hope I can finally pass the subject.
    Thanks Haziq for your 49/50 paper. Hate you and Nisa, if she got high marks also.


    Mathematics is the bull's eye now. Cannot disappoint Mrs Tay.

    FYI Kristie is a lunatic (who laughs super hard at things which aren't so funny).

    Went IMM with Aizhen and Kristie after school. Mingwei took the same bus and the Kristie lor, made me sit directly opposite him in Bus 98. Hahahaha, his face expression always so funny. Jolene's 'state of agony'. (Bushy you don't force me to say hor)

    FYI Aizhen is another lunatic (who laughs for no reason).

    But you two still rock =)
    (Ok ok I know, don't need to say: Of course lah! Thanks man.)

    ---

    Statement: I am losing my trust in you ...

    But, life is so unexpected, who knows perhaps God destinated me to die tomorrow.
    Murder, suicide, ageing, mental or physical illnesses, people still die one day.

    Therefore, appreciate the things you have and look at the brighter side of life instead of the bad things which could lead you to more misfortune.

    Live a day, smile a day.
    I shall laugh it (statement) off =)

    I am my own counsellor.

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    4:57 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    Today is 14th.


    "You are my Sunshine, my lovely Sunshine."
    But you are sleeping now, that's why there's no sunshine, that's why it's so dark... =)
    (Pig)

    Just finished history revision. I'm so proud of myself lah =)
    Going to wake up earlier than usual later to pass the notes to Laoren (sally) cause she has no printer and she needs to revise for the History CT later.

    I want to pass History!

    Good night =)

    P.S. My dear Aizhen Poop, DON'T BE SAD!! I will be there for you when you need me no matter what ok! Smile smile smile! Like the happy sun above! =) Loves.

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    1:02 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    -

    =]

    Today was ok. Lam Junyuan super funny. Haziq is so crap.


    Haziq: Eeeeeeeeeee. Cheowyi like eating satay with Muhammad!!
    Me: (didn't hear "with Muhammad", so said) Yea, nice what...
    Haziq and Hazairi: -state of agony!- hahahahhahahaa.

    I really didn't hear the behind part ok! So...
    pow!
    That's for you =)
    (Oh my god, Haziq is injured!)

    -wheeee wheeeee wheeeeeee- (Ambulance siren lah!!)
    Haziq thinks: Take the blue or black ambulance?!?! Why have two? Hah, must be cause I too BIG SIZE! =)


    THREE DAYS LATER... (and sia lah, sadly he's still alive!)
    Crazy ambulance person: HURRY LAH.
    Haziq: Let me think, or I BLOWW you away arh
    C.A.P.: Okay okay...
    Haziq: I shall take blue!
    C.A.P: FINALLY.
    Haziq: Know why?
    C.A.P.: No, but I have a feeling you’re gonna tell me… But you really don’t have to waste energy to..
    Haziq: NONSENSE! I’m a very nice person so (C.A.P pukes) I shall tell you why! =) Blue is the colour of the oceans, oceans are part of world’s nature, and nature is beautiful, don’t you think so? And since I’m so, heh, beautiful.. (C.A.P. pukes) Then I shall have no choice but to take the blue ambulance then! -wink wink-
    C.A.P.: Yes boss.
    (C.A.P. thinks: Si si, why he wink at me. Still wink two times.. Woooo! Maybe he's interested in me! Eeeeeeeeyer I then don't want him..)

    On the way to the hospital in the BLUE ambulance...
    C.A.P.: Want? -Gives apple-
    Haziq: Hm... (thinks)

    OK =)

    (Not continuing anymore)...

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    4:55 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    -

    Happy Birthday Singapore. =)
    Happy Birthday dear Cheena! =)

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    11:28 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    Cb.

    cherlyn: haha.
    diyanah: ya lah david. haha. how does he look like.
    kristie: hahaha. right.
    S.A.: give me your email.
    jeslynn: ok don't think too much.
    diyanah: haha. yes david.
    sally: ok.

    National Day Celebration. Walked 2.4km. Charity Bazaar.

    From Shinan. Otah + fishballs.
    Gave him $, didn't take food.
    From Bangguo. Marshmallows.
    Gave Summary.
    From Ruxin. Strawberry + chocolate fondue.
    Gave Eleazar.

    The rest was from my class' bazaar.

    Went up hall. Elycia got first again, retarded right. Many people stood up during the Stand Up for SG. Bushy fell on crushed my left leg when I was sitting down. Orh ceh jin tia leh.

    Went swimming at JE complex with Ziqi and Cherlyn. Jiahao, Shawn they all (sec ones) also. They suggested this catching game in the lazy river. Super funny. Ate at KFC then came home.

    Eleazar told me something so I called him to confirm it. Yeah, and he told me many things about - and - and - . I hope he talked me through. Because he doesn't give false hopes. These words he said I cannot forget.

    "He is _ _ _. He has _(not a noun) already, and he's just _ with _ _. _ is a _. Only _ would _ _. Sooner or later, _________, and I will say ______. I will never let _ bully my _ _. I shall _______."

    Fever + Headache + Flu isn't half as painful as Heart, and I thought I was strong. No one needs a sucker.
    But thank you very much, Eleazar. Appreciate it a lot. I didnt cry. -smile-

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    7:12 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    Muffin Day.

    Baked muffins today with Ziqi, Cherlyn and Jiayi. =)

    Reached home just now.

    Started off the afternoon at Ziqi's house doing our muffins, and we, obviously, needed time to do if I'm not wrong 100+ pre order bags and the other ones. We couldn't get the bags over because Sally's house was far and you could have came if you wanted =)

    We did until 7 and Jiayi (JVS) left. Ziqi was really pitiful ok.. Couldn't leave her there alone doing so many things herself so continued all the way. Then it was until 8+ when it rained very very heavily. But we still rushed our way to that shop somewhere across roads. Drenched until the auntie from the mart laughed and asked us why we wanted to buy a few bottles of coke, at such a time, in such a weather.

    It was super super heavy. And our bags cannot say not heavy when we (cherlyn and me) also needed to bring textbooks home to study. You need study, we also need =) It was so heavy we couldn't continue going. Dialed many numbers and finally got Wenhui's house number.

    He was actually sleeping halfway but just walked some blocks just to help us carry the things. What's more, on a rainy day can sleep until very shuang you know =) And ZIqi's brother was playing maple and his games happily and also came all the way to help us with the stuff. It may not be much to carry for you, but you won't understand what it was like, because you weren't there =)

    Thanks Wenhui.

    Wanted to cab home but Cherlyn's dad also came just to fetch she and me home, though he was busy. ZIqi might not know what you guys, erm, went through, but please spare a thought for her too =) You have things to do, she also had a job to complete her stuff.

    I reached home at 1030pm. I bathed and ate at 11pm. It's 1140pm now.

    And I got 4/20 for my science test, lowest in class, if you wanted to know.

    Just hope wouldn't get a cold tomorrow.


    I smiled all the way throughout the post. Good night people.

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    11:14 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

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    Two.

    Happiness is written all over your face.
    But, where is your inner beauty? =)

    ---
    Question: What's love without you?
    Answer: No love =D
    ---
    FYI Christine is a crazy woman =)
    And JESLYNN SOH JIAMIN, you cannot be sad!! =)
    Secret Admirer: Hah. Ya. Change it =)
    haziqq.: Lamo. -crush your paper- 13 and a half!
    kristie: Haha. Yes yes you said le lah. Wanted to tell you sth just now.. How many Speedo you have? Today you also wearing, haha.
    Sally: "Fishrice" is nice, lao ren =)
    chb: Yes, spongebob rocks =)
    cherlyn!: Thanks for today =)) Really! Don't see too much of Mcdonald face =)
    Alfred: Oi. I'm not ok. And it's coli, hah. Thanks for the change =)
    huien:): Hah. Long time ago come le =)
    diyanah: Crazy woman, you. Everyday David. In class also. Then for no reason will suddenly see newspaper and very happy. Haha.
    JIAYING :D: Haha =)
    Secret Admirer: Lol I not always ok... So angry yesterday...
    haziqq.: Cheeyuan said also. And if Azhar didn't show me his ass, I could have whacked you.

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    7:43 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

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    I deleted all those things, but only the latest ones.
    The others lazy to delete.
    忍忍忍! =D

    CHERLYN IM SO OPTIMISTIC LAH.

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    9:56 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

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    haziqq.: Hahaha. Zzz, ask the Hairul to go die -.- I'm not coli lor. I complain to your Nadin then you know uh.
    nylrehc!: Haha. Yesyes, liao liao liao. And always go Dongdong Uncle there he not there lor. I'm so scared sia you so "fierce" =)
    Secret Admirer: Lol! Where got people dunno themselves one. Is it? But watch on youtube better cause TV got so many commercials.. Don't listen to Cherlyn, later her Jeron come whack you.
    haziqq.: One more thing one more thing -.- Yeah yeah I love Leslie. Anyway everytime I see him I will say he cute then he will just give his type of smile. He used to it already. Love Leslie better than you love Azha(hahahahahaha)r, right =)
    kristie: Haha, laugh until like that! Yea lah you'll be "pokpok! see my new red pants. Speedo. Cos fuhua pants sibei ugly lah!" Lmao haha=)

    Me: Shi Ting, life is so meaningless, right?
    Shi Ting: What?!
    Cherlyn: No! Life is meaningful!
    -Shi Ting agreed-
    Cherlyn: Maybe cause you haven't found the meaning to your life yet.
    Me: Oh.. Yea.. Yea hor.. OK =)


    Saw a little girl going to Yuhua Pri taking the same lift as me. She's very nice. Although she isn't those kind of perfect princess guys see in their eyes, I think she'll grow up to be a very sweet and kind person who knows how to care about the people around her. If I were a guy, I'd choose these type of people instead of the ______ ones..

    Reading in the morning then two periods of math and history.. Went down to eat fishrice.. Lol, Ziqi, cherlyn and Huilun/Jianyuan calls it like that. Two free periods of chinese, followed by claymation and science.

    I'm not coli -.-
    Nothing else to say le, sorry Cherlyn my post is long liao =)

    If I've had a fake long lost twin, I could get her to replace me in this world.. Better ma...

    3:00 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    -

    cherlyn!: Haha. Ya ya I want I want. Your head. Yeah lor so scary every morning first thing is think about that... Halfway wake up then check if have any beside me or not. Good morning=D
    Secret Admirer: Lol. Then you are?
    kristie: Haha. Ok. Holiday lah then buy. Walao you lor, buy le jiu pok le. Cannot Yongyuanpok like Jordan already. I want do First Aid Duty! Don't need run=)
    diyanah: =D Wanted to let you hear during PE but phone was in class. Very nice you know the song!! Podolski ma=)
    Secret Admirer: Of course lah! =) So nice. I thought only twice. Forgot ending already.

    Haziq is... (one word)
    Lame.
    Sick.
    Stupid.
    Toot.
    Moron.
    Shit.
    Wild. (His pm)
    Animecrazy.
    Porno.
    Disgusting.
    Sucker.
    Kuku.
    Kns.
    Noisepollution.
    Ulu.
    Coli o.o
    Abdullahlover.
    And of course Blower.

    Cherlyn is... (two words)
    A Geek.
    Wols (turnover).
    Nerdy too.
    Maple crazy.
    Orange lover.
    Jeron lover=)
    Dongdonguncle lover!
    Also lame.
    Someonewholovesto "shuo"!
    Someonewhowants TSWZYT =)

    Bushy is... (one word)
    mw.
    Idiot.
    Sevendwarves.
    Tissue o.o
    Hanbin.
    Tantan.
    Yidali.
    LFK.
    Yuckface.
    Ramlyburger!
    Falldown xD
    "Wahhh"
    Lame.

    Leslie is... (one word)
    SOCUTE!!! =))
    Boonhao.
    (something) Ge. (ie ___ Brother)
    History.
    Helpful.
    Adorable.
    Funny.
    Victim (of Eleazar + CHeeyuan)
    ANd cute! =)

    Sarah is... (one word)
    Exportquality.
    Crazy.
    Fly-in-gym.
    EnidBlyton.
    Gay.
    Guaikia.
    Tortoise.
    Bangla.
    Aha! (sneeze)
    Henna.
    T_ _ _ _ _ _ / A_ _!

    Diyanah is... (one word)
    TC5.
    Kyle.
    Joey.
    David.
    Simpleplan?
    Morelamethanme=D

    3:13 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

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    (First episode)
    2nd - ---
    3rd - ---
    Green Forest My Home is showing again on TV=)
    It's very (x1000000000000000) nice.
    Better than Koizora (Sky of Love).

    Review: xoxo

    5:29 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    =)

    Geek, IwtswzyT! =)
    Summary is very nice=)

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    我把你的名雕刻在我的心上
    再默默的许愿---
    一定很快就会结束的
    (也或许现在已经结束了)

    我很高兴能认识你
    也觉得认识你是我的幸运
    但是,既然他们那么认为...
    ...
    代我向她致意

    我会很努力
    努力放弃你
    不再想太多
    也开心的过着生活

    多两年就ok了
    我行的=)


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    Smile smile smile.
    See lah, I told you I not emo one!
    =)...

    Alfred: No thanks=)
    melmelmel: Hello emelia=)
    Sally: Got see your tagboard? =)
    haziqq.: I kill you on monday. You know what you sent. Pervert. Sicko. No wonder Nadin and Nisa like you. Both N leh. Hahahahaha. Your favourite. Still have Nasuha.
    diyanah: Haha=) I want meet him... =(
    sarah ;D: Lame=) Ben dan is better than bai chi. Ie, I better than see xieyi=)
    Secret Admirer: Haha. Do I know you?

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    9:50 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

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    I would most probably be living my short day happily and die without regrets,
    if I were a mayfly...

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    (above) My most handsome wallpaper=)

    AND ZIDANE OF COURSE=)=)=)



    =)

    So cute hor the song=)

    The sweetest German player=)

    So loving=)

    10:40 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.