Our greatest glory is not never falling but in rising everytime we fall. =)


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Today was fun. Pokpok rocks, haha! She's as crazy as Lim Aizhen.

Mrs Tay said that she appreciated what three of us did for her. I'm happy when Mrs Tay is happy =)

And hope stupid Cold gets the phone back. Keep sing sing sing xD -faints-

8:33 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.


Reading today. Pokpok and stupid dog's friend/rapist's victim keep chao chao chao =) Pokpok during class also keep want kope my new pen. Rarrrrr =)

Ms Dai didn't come for chinese. Mrs Tay... came after that.. Really teared when you were to see her face full of sorrow and sadness.. Especially when she emphasized on the two words - too late. Hope she liked the bookmark and that her mother's ok...

Ok, so english after recess. I got confused over spelling 'imagining' and 'imaginating'. I wrote imaginating, which I still have this feeling that it seems perfectly alright. Changed it for the comprehension anyway. Geog and science after that.

Jolene went to meet her primary school friend. Geek and I stayed in class with people like Jeslynn, Ian, Jiayi, Diyanah, Nisa, Emelia, Chee Yuan, Eleazar, Haziq, Azhar and some others.

Around four, went for lunch until five and went home. I will do my math homework by tomorrow morning, for Mrs superwonderfulandfroggy Tay, who's willing to sacrifice much time for her students.

8:52 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

Sorry Mrs Tay =(

Reached class with Geek at 630am today. So cool right. Mrs Tay still looked happy before assembly..

Wrote si han, and number five for the chinese compo, which I couldn't find anyone who wrote that, not even one. I wrote about how 'I've' gone through my troubles, through thick and thin. It was quite long, and I finished it just one minute before the end of Paper 1.

Paper 2 was ok, just that I forgot how to write huan ran yi xin.. Mrs Tay came at one sharp and realised we were about to start the paper 3. Everybody laughed not because of her but the cute expression on her looks. But she reprimanded us and said she had rushed back from the hospital after visiting her mother just to have an hours' lesson with us.

We thought she would know about us having Papers 1 - 3. We didn't know what circumstances she was undergoing. We didn't know laughing at her expression would make her feel so disappointed and down. Jeslynn said her eyes were very red when she went to the staff room after that to find her. Then we didn't have her lesson after that...

I've written something to pass to her. Sorry, Mrs Tay. We didn't mean it. Please forgive us.


Talking to you now seems as if I'm talking to the wall. I don't know how to express this feeling, but life now is really different from what it was like in the past few months.

It was like how it went during the period of the previous common test. Just that, this time, things are worse.


Emelia & Aizhen Please cheer up. Life has to go on. Smile.

9:14 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.


Stupid geek woke up already =)

10:37 AM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

Finished Mrs Tay's homework =)

I don't know why but I suddenly feel depressed. I hope you won't lie to me. I trust you. I hope what you said was true and not because you want to deceive yourself or anything, or hide from the fact that it was you who did it. I don't want you to be like what he said you were like.

Something's happening to me ever since that day when I didn't get to talk to you that much. I feel quite weird when I don't talk to you. And sometimes I get this feeling when I see things which I didn't seem to like to see. Is this what people call, jealousy?

This is super distracting and annoying. I must really try to concentrate with my studies instead of thinking of such things.

And thank you Ian and Jolene for chatting on phone with me yesterday when I was very bored and half dead. Geek (sleep sleep sleep -laughs-) rocks alot alot, too.

I want to talk to you, cause I feel so funny when I don't.

8:37 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

Happy birthday, Sally =)

HELLO SALLY LIM, HAPPY BIRTHDAY =) Best wishes for your MYE ok, and I promise I would remember to bring that thing on monday and give it to you. I couldn't find a doraemon one ma, so bought pink one =)

This was what dear Krispok said:

as said,
its our last year being together,
from 1r2'o7 to 2i2'o8,
there were many conficts.
though u may hate the person alot.
and wished that him/her is shot dead.

you never know how much harm can u do to the person mentally.
you never know who deep will the person be hurt,
how humiliated can the person be,
how angry can the person be.
or even,
how harsh are your words and doings can be.

you'll never know.
all these can go to certain extends,
and impacts done at different rates.

i believe that deep down,
whatever you do,
everyone still has conscience.
it may not be a lot,
but its still there.

i hope that every one of these will be resolved,
for its our last year together.

i'll pray for everyone,
and in prayer,
i shall pray for 2i2's united-ness.


Thank you, Krispok =)

Today was a good day and a bad day. But I shall try to look at the positive side of life instead.

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6:06 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.


I feel better =)

7:33 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.


I don't know if I'm supposed to be angry, sad, confused or anything.

I just hate life as it is. I deleted yesterday's post because I found it so fake in the end.

Friends who call themselves friends when they want you dead. What more can I expect...

Now I'm at home but can't find Mrs Tay's homework which I must within what conditions pass it up tomorrow. I called almost everyone in my list, but nobody was able/willing to help.

I find myself so useless. I don't like life. Life sucks. And some so called friends would be hoping I would die the sooner the better one day so that everybody would rejoice at the thought of it.

To some people, there's no good with me living here anyway...

Today was a completely awful day... I won't be expecting much from tomorrow ... Just good luck to everyone for their exams. Hope they beat me in their studies, just as they wanted to...

Life sucks so much when your friends aren't there for you like how they used to cheer you up with their smses.....
Ok I shall stop my imagination. It's all the past. -slaps self-

Mrs Tay's gonna skin me alive.

5:21 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.


I don't want my PE attire to be confiscated again -frowns-

Had CE test today. The only question I thought I knew was the one asking what requirements is needed to brew a nice tea. But still, it's was ok, even if I fail again..

Watching the chinese show now, fuhua's on it. One girl, Lifeng and Junyuan. Just now got two points, 'takecarelor' (a person lah) say record. Rofl.

7:49 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.


NIGEL TAN JUN JIE! Come back Singapore leh. Then you make lunch for me lah =)

I give up. Since beating me in studies is so important to you guys, go ahead.

C GIRLS (Christine, Soksan, Jayda):
Lets not skip training anymore. Must really try to go for every training, although I don't feel like lah. We have to force and motivate outselves to train and beat the other schools.
I don't like to be laughed at, that's why =)
Go go go, C Girls. Haha.

7:46 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.


-Hugs Jeslynn bigbig- NOW YOU DON'T FEEL HURT ANYMORE =)

Swimming today with Krispok and Chin Zeikei =)

Went to Jurong Swimming Complex. It was a super fun time with them, full of laughter and joy. Now I don't fear coming down from the red and blue slides because of those two beloved friends =)

And I put my tagboard up because they wanted me to.

I feel so bored at home only being able to just listen to songs sometimes and stuck with that huge pile of geography revision. And Sally Chua, Cherlyn and I have bought your birthday present! =)

(On top) This is the second picture. Ziqi deleted the first one which Krispok and I both liked, because she didn't know we wanted it. I look stupid.

Lol! That Bangala Princess. We saw a lot of her 'relatives' swimming.

(From left) Jocelyne(I), Jeslynn(P), Me(L), Jolene(A), Sarah(Y) ... IPLAY =)
This is for the Project Work thing.

THat's all =)

7:37 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

Mrs Tay rocks =)

Jeslynn Soh Jiamin, it isn't worth it sheding tears for people like him. If it's really neccessary to break, then just do it =) Just don't make the people around worry for you. And if you want to vent your anger again the next time, I won't mind running those rounds again, ok? Cheer up. Be brave, ah soh =)

Today was ok. Thanks Ian for being my one day atm.

Mrs Tay is a really nice teacher, and not to forget funny also. Haha. Mr Chan said that she's gonna retire at the end of this year. I'm not sure whether it's true or not, but a lot of people felt really happy when they know that, but I don't feel the same way as them.

Although Mrs Tay always scolds students and speak her mind out like,"Even idiots can do this!" or stuff like that, to me, I think she's really being wei da and helpful to us. Perhaps a lot of people will object to what I say.

But it's just that, like what she said, even if we fail our exams, she will still get her pay. And if she isn't serious in teaching us, she would just teach just for the sake of teaching instead of confiscating ezlink cards and everything to make us stay back and do our work.

I just want to make it a point to everybody that Mrs Tay is not that bad a teacher as a lot of you guys think. I think that she's doing this for us to have a brighter future. Teachers want us to succeed, that's why they make the effort to scold students and everything to hope that they would learn their mistakes.

But, many would just give them a sign or a look of anger on their faces when the teachers turn their back on them. Sometimes, I admit that I do that too. But, I realised that it's really wrong to do that, so I'm trying not to do that when I get angry, because I won't be able to control myself.

I feel as if I'm such a big disappointment to teachers sometimes, mainly Ms Dai and Mrs Tay.

But don't get me wrong. I'm not sad, ok? =)


9:20 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.


Jolene, Ziqi, Sally, Cherlyn, Jeron, Tingting, Krispok, Alfred.

I don't know how to thank you guys, but you guys were very encouraging. You made me wipe the sadness away and plaster a smile onto my face instead. Super glad to have such wonderful friends like you ok.

I'm speechless, but really, really grateful to all of you.

Thank you for everything =)

PS Cheer up, Aizhen and Kenny:)

8:11 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

Science centre.

THanks, Sally Lim. Your boyfriend is so fortunate to have you, haha =)

Went to Science Centre after school with about 20 classmates and other schoolmates. It was so fun. After the program, took neos with 9 people - Jolene, Jeslynn, Jordan, Eleazar, Jiayi, Huilun, Nisa, Jiaxin, Nadin. Went back to Science Centre's mac. Treated Jordan.

Went to the spinning fireball thingy. Walked to a different bus stop from others with Jordan because only he could take the bus I was taking.

Loads of homework to do.

I, Teng Cheowyi, must remember to bring my journal, and if I forget to do my reflecions on a piece of foolscap paper.

I had to write 100 lines of that line above and pass it up to Mr Yeo tomorrow. Plus the homework I owe Mrs Tay, geography workbook and to study Chapters 11 - 14 for Chinese test tomorrow.

7:34 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.


Speech and Drama was fun today.

Wanted to have a nice post but I went to see someone's blog and something spoilt my mood.

It's not good to swear. But here, I'm swearing to everyone, I can do it, because what the person said made me determined.

I will really put in effort to show everyone I can do it, and to most importantly prove to fakers I can do well in my studies. Although there isn't much time left, I will try.

If I can't beat you, you can call me a loser.

You made me cry, but to you, I guess calling people names is just another funny thing ...

10:23 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

Tunnel Ball.

Went to Bedok Town Secondary for tunnel ball cheering. Saw Pornsak, this girl and Guo Liang. Didn't manage to take a picture with Pornsak and the girl because of Ms Dai. But if JJ was there, I would just dash right beside him.

Anyway, yea. We won BTS but did not manage to beat some record because Tedmund teddy dropped the ball. But, I guess it's ok. Everyone did their best.

Before that, I alighted the bus first cause nobody wanted to. I was waving like an idiot at the camera. And when they were interviewing Cindy or someone, I, Jolene and Kristie held the flag until Pornsak suddenly pulled it aside. So surprised. Then I think he asked me something in front of the camera. Like why did you 'hide' or something.

It's embarrassing, but how cool is it to be in front of the camera.

Mr Chan said that it would be on TV on the 20th of May. It's called The Records Challenge, 奔向健力士.

And I'm not emo. I'm just sad. There is a difference, right.

8:21 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

Animal facts.

Some interesting animal facts i saw from Don't know whether they are true or not, though.

� A crocodile can't stick its tongue out.
� A shrimp's heart is in its head.
� Rats multiply so quickly that in 18 months, two rats could have over a million descendants.
� The heaviest domestic cat is a tabby called 'Himmy' who weighed 21.3kg (46lb 15oz) at his death in 1984.
� Goats and octopus' eyes have rectangular pupils. Eeeewwwwww
� Some ribbon worms will eat themselves if they can't find any food.
� Cat's urine glows under a blacklight.
� It was discovered on a space mission that a frog can throw up. The frog throws up its stomach first, so the stomach is dangling out of its mouth. Then the frog uses its forearms to dig out all of the stomach's contents and then swallows the stomach back down again.
� Studies show that if a cat falls off the seventh floor of a building it has about thirty percent less chance of surviving than a cat that falls off the twentieth floor. It supposedly takes about eight floors for the cat to realise what is occuring, relax and correct itself. At about that height it hits maximum speed and when it hits the ground its rib cage absorbs most of the impact
� A donkey will sink in quicksand but a mule won't.
� In the state of Minnesota, citizens may not enter Wisconsin with a chicken on their head
� The female preying mantis devours her partner while they're mating or she might rip his head off before because he cannot 'perform' with his head is attached to his body. Girl Power!
� Polar bear livers are poisonous because they contain too much vitamin C
� A cockroach will live nine days without it's head before it starves to death
� Sharks never get sick, they are immune to all known diseases.
� A study conducted in Germany appears to show listening to loud rock music causes homosexuality in rats. Why hell did they conduct a study into that?
� The poison-arrow frog has enough poison to kill about 2,200 people !
� In some American states it is illegal to have sex with a dead fish! What about the live ones then? And the other question is how?
� Contray to the phrase "sweating like a pig", pigs cant actually sweat
� A duck's quack doesn't echo, and no one knows why. (However, it was discovered on a British TV show, "Brianiac" that this myth is a complete lie!)
� In Utah, birds have the right of way on all highways.
� To survive, every bird must eat at least half its own weight in food each day.
� All porcupines float in water.
� Human birth control pills work on gorillas.
� Apart from humans, certain species of chimpanzee are the only animals to experiment sexually. They have been known to 'wife swap' and indulge in group sex. Kinky!
� An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain.
� A cat has 32 muscles in each ear.
� The giant squid has the largest eyes in the world.
� The groundhog is only accurate in predicting the weather 28% of the time.
� The human heart creates enough pressure when it pumps out to the body to squirt blood 30 feet.
� Bats always turn left when exiting a cave.
� Our eyes are always the same size from birth, but our nose and ears never stop growing.
� All polar bears are left-handed.
� A snail can sleep for three years.
� Elephants are the only animals that can't jump.
� Only one person in two billion will live to be 116 or older.
� It's possible to lead a cow upstairs ... but not downstairs.
� More people fear spiders more than they do death.
� Butterflies taste with their feet.
� The flea can jump 350 times its body length. It's like a human jumping the length of a football field.
� The catfish has over 27,000 taste buds.
� Some lions mate over 50 times a day.
� The strongest muscle in the body is the tongue.
� Right-handed people live, on average, nine years longer than left-handed people.
� Starfish have no brains.
� Humans and dolphins are the only species that have sex for pleasure.
� A rat can last longer without water than a camel.
� Your stomach has to produce a new layer of mucus every two weeks or it will digest itself.
� A female ferret will die if it goes into heat and cannot find a mate.
� If someone places a tiny amount of liquor on a scorpion, it will instantly go mad and sting itself to death.
� Cats and dogs can only see the colours blue and yellow.
� It is impossible to hum if your nose is plugged. Try it!
� Chickens can't burp.

9:02 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.


Thank you, Cherlyn geek =) You rock, like the dongdong uncle xD Hahaha! Let's visit him soon.

3:43 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.


Let's cheer our best tomorrow, 2i2 and 2i1. We must beat the opponent =)

I miss Europe. I want to visit Italy, Switzerland and France again. Alphorn, art, bears, birds, bright lights, castle, churches, cold sanwiches, colosseum (Rome, Italy), culture, Disney, Eiffel Tower, fleur de latte, Florence (Italy), friends, gelato*, Geneva (Switzerland), Interlaken (Switzerland), joy & laughter, Lucerne (Switzerland), Matterhorn (Originated toblerone), Mona Lisa, mountains, Paris (France), Pisa, pizza, romance, sceneries, shopping, skiing, soccer, snow, trains, Venice (Italy), winter, Zermatt & Zurich (Switzerland) and everything.

Venice is very beautiful and unique. I never regretted taking the wonderful gondola.

gelato* is ice cream made from whole milk. I love fleur de latte ice cream. How I wish I can indulge into one right now. -sigh-


2:53 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.


I don't know why you hate me, and I don't know what I've done to have offended you both either. Was it something I said? Did I say things like," Hey bitch, you suck." or rude stuff which make you dislike me? Seriously, I don't get it. Why do you act so friendly in front of me when it's all a fake. Why. You could have just told me you hated me so, instead of doing this behind my back.

If you hate me, tell me straight to my face can. I'm not angry. I'm just so, so shocked. I thought you both were true friends. How we spent the wonderful days last year, I still remember, even if you two don't. This is super hurting. My mind was blank when I saw that thing you called me.

I can try to change for the better if you can tell me my flaws. Since you hate me, why can't you just tell me. It's not as if I'm stopping you from doing so or anything. Since you hate me so much, why don't you call me that name in the face. Isn't it better. You can just disgace me in front of everybody and tell them what a sucker I am.

Was this what you both wanted? If so, why don't you do it.

Do you know what kind of feeling this is that I'm having right now. It's like millions of knifes stabbed into the heart, but no matter how hard I rack my brain, I really don't recall what I've said to have offended both of you. Unless, for no good reason, I'm just the dog who follows you both at the back, like what you've called me.

I'm the dumb dog, tied around the leash which is led by both of you. Is it satisfactory to you. I run errands for you. I lick your shoes for you. IS THIS WHAT YOU WANT, OR ARE THE SHOES NOT CLEAN ENOUGH.


I'm really having a headache now, but it's no match to the pain in my heart.

I just want to know what I have done wrong.......


9:38 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

Happy birthday, Felicia.

Happy birthday, Felicia =) I did not cut down the Eeyore's head ok, hope you like it anyway.

A normal day.


8:59 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.


Happy Birthday, Sweden =)

These few days were ok, with lots of ups and downs, especially when you realised that your 'friends' called you something really rude behind your back, and act so friendly in front of you =(


Tuesday was Guan Liang's birthday, I think. Happy belated birthday. Had assembly yesterday and then the cheering thing for tunnel ball. At first was moody until like hell, then was super hyper. We did quite well ok, thanks to Kristie, the prefects and the whole 2i2 class. =)

Played dodgeball after that with Jolene, Alfred, Jeslynn, Eleazar, Nisa, Guan Liang, Hui Lun, Ian. SHould be just like that. THen everyone except Guan Liang and Eleazar went to bubble tea shop to drink. My darling blue coral =) Was a really nice day.

And I forgot when was the judging day, but Krispok and Sally Lim were siao siao lor =)

Today. Didn't go training again. Slacked with Soksan, CHristine, Joelly, Rouyi, Daoyi, Zexun. Soksan was as crazy as usual, hahaha. DNT tomorrow, so sucky lor.

CE tomorrow, yay.

6:58 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

Happy birthday, Wenhui.

Happy Birthday, Wenhui =) Wish you all the best in anything. Haha.

Today was ok.

Nearly late today, then Sally shouted," Cheowpok!" Haha. Ran three rounds for PE and watched them play Captains Ball. Three periods of Mrs Tay's lessons because Mrs Low didn't come. Ate only a tiny bit of sandwich form Bushy's for recess.

Science test was ok. Chinese test was not well done, such a disappointment to teacher =( English was newspaper reading. Had Geography remedial after school. Packed chicken rice to class:)


8:06 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

Quiz from Sally.

Credits to Sally =)

[ ] I know how to make a pot of coffee.
[ ] I keep track of dates using a calendar.
[ ] I own more than one credit card.
[ ] I know how to change the oil in my dad's car.
[ ] I do my own laundry.
[ ] I vote every election.
[x] I can cook for myself.
[ ] I think politics are exiting.
[ ] I balance my checkbook.
[ ] My parents have better things to say than my friends.

total: 1

[x] I show up for school/college/work& every day early.
[ ] I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse.
[ ] I've never gotten a detention.
[x] I have never smoked a cigarette.
[ ] I have never gotten completely trashed.
[x] I have forgotten my own birthday at least once.
[x] I like to take walks by myself.
[ ] I've watched talk shows. (What are talk shows?)
[x] I know what 'credibility' means without looking it up.
[ ] I drink coffee at least once a week.

total: 5

[x] I know how to do the dishes
[x] I can count to 10 in another language.
[x] When I say I'm going to do something, I do it.
[x] My parents trust me.
[ ] I can mow the lawn.
[ ] I can make adults laugh without being stupid.
[ ] I remember to water the plants.
[x] I study when I have to. (Sometimes)
[ ] I pay attention at school/college.
[ ] I remember to feed my pets. (Sorry lah sometimes I forget. Krispok, don't scold me.)

total: 5

[x] I can spell 'experience' without looking it up
[ ] I work out on a regular basis.
[ ] I clean up my own mess.
[ ] The people at Starbucks know me by name
[ ] My favorite kind of food is take out.
[x] I have gained weight after middle/high school.
[ ] The first thing I do when I wake up is get caffeine.
[ ] I can’t go out of the store without getting something I don't need.
[ ] I understand political jokes the first time they are said.
[ ] I can type quickly.

total: 2

[ ] I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour.
[ ] My only friends are from my place of employment.
[ ] I have been to a Tupperware party.
[ ] I have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[ ] I have more bills that I can pay.
[ ] Most of my friends are older than I am.
[x] I can say no to staying out all night.
[x] I use the internet every day.
[x] My wardrobe hasn't changed in a while.
[x] I can read a book and actually finish it.

total: 4

Add up the numbers and my Marrying Age is: 17

Hahaha, how nice. -laughs it off-

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7:40 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.


Looking back at my Wednesday, March 5 @ 6:02 PM: Rainy Day. post, the italics caught my eye. Now, you don't come near me, stare into my eyes, talk to me anymore, but only avoid me. I guess I should be happy, shouldn't I?

-smacks own face- Never in my life have I known such a loser like myself.

To think that you still knew me on Cultutal Night, because of the phone call I received from you...

-tries to scream- (but nothing comes out)

9:35 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.


-bangs against the wall repeatedly-
Why is everything in such a huge mess.

Poor Chengxi lost his phone, hopes he finds it soon or something.

12:36 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.


Just finished watching Just In Singapore (9 o'clock show in Channel 8) last episode. Some parts were so eye-teary.

  • When Dingyi (Kang Chengxi!) heard the record of Xiuming (Fiona Xie!) naming the 3 million price. [It was fake actually]
  • When Dingyi (Kang Chengxi) realised that things Xiuming (Fiona Xie) did like the so-called pregnancy and everything was fake. This part was so so so nice ok.
  • When Xiuzhen (Paige Chan) called Nancy (Chen Liping) 'mum' when she was to kneel down to her on daughter, although they have already signed a contract that said they were not related to each other.
  • When Weijie (that shuai boy!) got knocked down by a car driven by Zhigang (Adam Chen!). Everyone around was crying. Another part was when Robert (Nelson Chia) told Weijie (his son) that he will finally find a job. Really very sad.
  • When Zhigang (Adam Chen) was crashed by the car and died. Granny Ma (Hong Da Mu) shruggled and yelled in pain for her grandson, despite the way he had always treated her -sad look-

    These were the only ones which really left a deep impression in my mind.

    I don't know what I should do. I just feel so guilty. Why is this happening to me. And why does the person I fell for hate me so much when I don't know what I have done. This is so annoying but no matter how hard I try I CANNOT GIVE UP.
    I remember, once, I read my horoscope. It said something like accepting the person who likes you, instead of the person you like, but doesn't like you. Too high standards will give you nothing in the end. But I CANNOT I CANNOT I CANNOT.
    I've stared at the moving cars outside school today. I was thinking what it would be like if I went in front of them. It means either hospital, Hell or Heaven. Perhaps if I were lucky, I would land myself in Heaven and don't have to face you again. Then you and her would be peaceful without me, the stupid extra. But, the thought of my parents and family made me change my mind.
    I'm very afraid of Death, but I fear you more, do you understand?!?!?!
    I hate it so much when people keep mentioning his name in front of me purposely.

    我真的不行!WHY WHY WHY LAH =((((((((((((((((((((((((((

    (I feel as if I'm talking to myself. I tell anyone things like this and no one would give a damn to understand)

    11:33 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.


    Happy Birthday, Aishah =)

    My 100th post.
    Yet, I'm getting nowhere...

    8:17 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.


    Although I don't know what I've done, and you can ignore me for all you want, as long as you promise that you will cheer up and be happy.

    Don't worry. I know you'll never like me and I won't get any wrong ideas from anyone. -smiles truly-

    7:55 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.


    Please don't be so sad. It breaks hearts. God created you not to let you go through such pain in the world but to smile along, even when it rains and pours. You just have to make the first move for your pretty Princess. She might also be waiting.

    Have faith in yourself. I doubt you'll read this, but there is still a one percent chance you will and I hope you do. Take care. -forces a smile-

    8:07 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.

    Happy April FOols Day.

    Sorry Dai Lao Shi, I shall not repeat the mistake again for your work. Thank you for your forgiveness. I know I'm in the wrong.
    Sorry Alfred, for making teacher scold you too and stand for an hour with me. Can I repay you with your favourite toblerone?
    Sorry Mr Chan, for the unruly misbehaviour today. I wasn't able to control myself. Sorry to have made you feel disappointed. Perhaps I'm just not suitable for a good science rap.


    Song Lyrics
    You're always on my mind
    All day just all the time
    You're everything to me
    Brightest star to let me see
    You touch me in my dreams
    We kiss in every scene
    I pray to be with you through rain and shiny days.

    I'll love you till I die
    Deep as sea
    Wide as sky
    The beauty of our love paints rainbows
    Everywhere we go
    Need you all my life
    You're my hope
    You're my pride
    In your arms I find my heaven
    In your eyes my sea and sky
    May life our love paradise.

    You're always on my mind
    All day just all the time
    You're everything to me
    Brightest star to let me see
    You touch me in my dreams
    We kiss in every scene
    I pray to be with you through rain and shiny days.

    I'll love you till I die
    Deep as sea
    Wide as sky
    The beauty of our love paints rainbows
    Everywhere we go
    Need you all my life
    You're my hope
    You're my pride
    In your arms I find my heaven
    In your eyes my sea and sky
    May life our love paradise.

    I'll love you till I die
    Deep as sea
    Wide as sky
    The beauty of our love paints rainbows
    Everywhere we go
    Need you all my life
    You're my hope
    You're my pride
    In your arms I find my heaven
    In your eyes my sea and sky
    May life our love paradise.

    7:20 PM // Out of the darkness and into the sun.